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| where is my life headed???truth be told,
...i have no freaking clue.
i have absolutely no idea where my life is headed,
what my plans are, or anything of anything.
all my plans seem to keep failing. nothing knew to me of course.
failure and i have been best friends for many years now, and i have now learned to fully welcome it with a smile :)
im never put down by the fact that something just basically turns to shit.
all that means is that i need to seek a new opportunity.
i always seem to have options and plans and stuff, or at least some
type of sense of direction (im speaking about my life of course....we
all know my sense of direction is completely horrible)
BUT now, i really have no clue what im to do.
im insanely broke, and when i say insanely, i mean insanely.
i always say, oh well, something good will eventually happen,
and well something always does, God has never failed me there, but i am
now thinking, when will my options run out? i mean argh...
i have no freaking clue what im doing.
right now all i do is basically sleep and work and stuff.
...but now i dont know. ive been considering the following for a long
time now- moving back to orange county with ismael and josh.
that would be just perfect for me. living with my two best friends, BUT
i also very much do not want to move back to orange county...
well not anytime soon that is. if i move back now, it will be like i failed.
not necessarily failed on making it on my own (being how ive been gone
from oc for 6 months) but the fact that i failed on starting a new life.
i can never seem to stop thinking about my sisters and all my friends.
today on the way home from work it all dawned on me.
i need them....or so i told myself, but the main part of me always
tells me, "you dont need anyone but yourself and God." i am really very
confused right now.
i also think that if i do decide to leave here, i will be leaving
certain things* that have become quite important in my life, and that
once im back i shall miss the things* i left.
i hate feeling like i need someone else other than myself.
everything that i have, i have worked hard for.
sure my parents provided a home for me, but i never asked them for
anything. i mean, i may not have much, or next to practically nothing,
but the little i do have, i know i earned it by my own merits.
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well actually, right now i just made my decision on all this haha.
some may like it, some may not.
- so im searching for new roomates somewhere a lot closer to school.
i guess if i cant find anyone in the next 2 weeks, im moving back.
there you go. thats my decision. im sure quite a few of you will be happy.
...but umm yeah, i might change my mind, but probably not.
soooooo if you want me to move back, you better pray that i dont find roomates.
well, i guess its back to square one for me again.
i like to call it home :) | | |
| 001. What is your name? you should all know it if you're reading this
002. Spell your name backwards: ...
003. Date of birth: 8/16/87
004. Male or female? male
005. Astrological sign: Leo
006. Nicknames: emm, manny, emmy
007. Occupation? striving musician hahaha
008. Height: 5'7 T_T
um random numbers missing..
010. Hair color: you'd think it was black, but its actually dark brown
011. Eye color: black...or really really really dark brown
....
013. Where do you reside now? Rancho Cordova Ca...sac county
014. Age: 18
015. Screen names: umm...no
016. E-mail addy: once again...no
017. What does your screen name stand for? depends which one
018. What is your L J name? lj?
019. What does your Blurty name stand for? wtf?
020. Pets: umm my dog back at home is name legend
021. Number of candles you blew out on your last birthday? i dont think it had candles
022. Piercings? ears and tounge
023. Tattoo's? none
025. Righty or lefty? right
026. Wearing: "the peanuts" shirt and pants
027. Hearing: ted leo & the pharmacists
028. Feeling: tired
029. Eating/drinking: nada
~Love/Kissing/And Other Stuff~
061. Have you ever been in love? you could say that
062. How many people have you told? meh
063. How many people have you been in love with? wasnt this just asked?
114. Does someone in your family wear a toupee? no one in my family has ever even been close to being bald
115. Do you have any nieces or nephews? hells yeah. lots
116. Are your parents divorced? nope
117. Do you have step parents? nope
118. Has your family ever disowned another member of your family? me?
120. Did some of your family come to America from another country? all of my family
~Music Stuff~
121. What song do you swear was written about you or your life? hmm...only in dreams
122. What's the most embarrasing CD you own? none are embarrising
123. What's the best CD you own? weezer (blue album)
124. What song do you absolutely hate? anything emo
125. Do you sing in the shower? all the time
126. What song reminds you of that special someone? special someone? hahahaha how about "why bother"- by weezer
"...but its just sexual attraction, its nothing real so i better keep on..." you know the lyrics
Favorites
152. Color: blue
153. Food: anything i cook
154. Song: only in dreams
155. Show: naruto!!!!111
157. Band/singer: weezer
158. Animal: uh...wolf/black jaguar
161. Movie: interview withthe vampire/edward siscor hands
162. Pair of shoes: umm my blue slip on vans...that are back at home
164. Actor: tin tan
165. Actress: uh...no clue
166. Potato chip: lays...with hot sauce!!!!!111
167. Drink: cranberry juice
168. Alcholic drink: ...
169. Holiday: thanksgiving
170. Perfume/cologne: umm...i like axe. lol
171. Pizza topping: cheese
172. Jello flavor: oh man...ill take any type :)
173. Lunch meat: turkey
174. Board game: apples and apples. lol
175. Video game: hmm...final fantasy 7
176. Website: myspace...or x uqa
177. Book: clockwork orange
178. Computer game: ummm gunbound
179. Number: 7
180. Cereal: honey bunches of oats
181. Comedian: dave chapell
182. Dessert: apple pie, cheesecake, chocalate cake, pistachio ice cream
183. Disney character: uh...woody
184. Clothing store: umm macys or robinsons may
185. Past time: playing the guitar
186. Teacher: mrs. dickey
187. Childhood toy: umm my ninja turtles
188. Carnival game/ride: dunno
189. Candy bar: im not a fan of chocolate anymore
190. Magazine: uh...none
191. Salad dressing: ewwwwwwwww
192. Thing to do on the weekend: hang out with friends
193. Hot drink: i hate hot drinks
194. Season: anytime its raining
195. Sport to watch: soccer, football, box
196. Person to talk to online: uh...i dont log on to aim
199. Do you have posters on your wall? no, BUT i do have a sweet "the smiths" poster
200. If so of what? ...
201. Do you have a TV in your bedroom? nope...well kindof
202. How many pillows are on your bed? they're called piiiilows
207. Do you have your own phone line in your bedroom? i have a cell
208. Do you listen to music while trying to fall asleep? used to
209. Describe the last nightmare you had: ive had 3 nightmares my whole life
210. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? when i was a kid
211. How many people can comfortably sleep in your bed? uh me
212. Do you sleep in any unusual positions? i dont sleep unless i need to...but sometimes
213. Do you have to share your bedroom with a sibling? nope
214. Do you snore? no, but i do talk in my sleep
215. How about drool? uh...i have sometimes when ive been talking. lol
216. Do you have an alarm clock in your room? no need for one
217. What color is the carpet in your room? carpet color
218. What's under your bed? trumpet
219. Beach/mountains: beach
220. Donuts/bagels: donuts
221. Day/night: night
222. Wicked witch of the east/wicked witch of the west: umm the one the house landed on. lol
223. Heaven/hell: heaven...duh
225. Coffee/tea: coffee
228. Britney/Christina: neither
229. Swiss cheese/american cheese: american...but only on cheeseburgers
230. Real World/Road Rules: wtf?
231. Backstreet Boys/NSYNC: backstreet boys fo sho
Have You Ever...
331. Mooned anyone? nope
332. Been on a diet? nope
333. Been to a foreign country? yep
334. Broken a bone? not really...kinda :S
335. Swallowed a tooth/cap/filling? swallowed plenty of tounge rings
336. Swear at a teacher? called them an idiot
338. Got in a fight? perhaps
339. Dated a teacher? hahahaha no
340. Laughed so hard you peed your pants? nope
341. Thought about killing your enemy? ...i have no enemies, but i have thought about killing someone
342. Gone skinny dipping? uh...perhaps, kinda.
344. Told a little white lie? duh
345. Told a secret you swore not to tell? everyone tells me everything.
i cant help it if i accidentely say it, but if i remember im not
supposed to say it i wont.
346. Stolen anything? uh...im sure i have
347. Misused a swear word and it sounded absolutely stupid? nope
348. Been on TV? nope
349. Been on the radio? nope
350. Been in a mosh pit? nope
351. Been to a concert? yep
353. Loved someone so much it makes you cry? ugh
355. Broken the law? perhaps
356. Been to a rodeo? hells yeah
357. Been on a talk show? nope
358. Been on a game show? nope
359. Been on an airplane? too many times
360. Got to ride on a firetruck? nope
361. Came close to dying? perhaps...a few times...
364. Terrorized a babysitter? never had one
365. Made a mud pie? eww no
366. Had a dream that your falling off a cliff? my tounge has cutoff my
oxygen supply at night while sleeping and i feel like im falling, if
that is what is being asked.
367. Snuck out of the house at night? perhaps
368. Been so drunk you don't remember your name? nope
370. Felt like you didn't belong? umm...a few times
371. Felt like the 3rd wheel? ummm...sometimes, when with my sister and...uh yeah. lol
372. Smoked? perhaps
373. Done drugs? perhaps
374. Been arrested? nope
375. Had your tonsils removed? uh no....if i did, my voice would be even lower
376. Gone to camp? nope
377. Won a bet? all the time
378. Written a love letter? written an i miss you letter
379. Gone out of your way to be with the one you love? ...way out of my way. but oh well. meh
380. Written a love poem? ive written a song, not really a love song, but a song. songs are poems right?
386. Asked a friend for relationship advice? yes, but i dont really
ever pay attention to it. i just like to hear what people think.
389. Gotten a speeding ticket? nope
390. Done jail time? nope
391. Had to wear a uniform to work? yep
392. Won a trophy? tae kwon do!!1 :D
393. Thrown up in public? nope...well josh was holding me apparently and yeah. i dont remember. :S
395. Failed/got held back? nope
396. Got perfect attendance in grade school? umm no?
397. Roasted pumpkin seeds? YES!!!!!11111 oh man. i love being mexican
398. Taken ballet lessons? uh no
399. Attempted suicide? nope. wtf? lame
400. Cut yourself? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH retards that do that or have done that deserve to die
425. Do you believe in aliens? of course
426. Name three things that are next to your computer: jeez...there's like hundreds of things here. umm glasses, control, cds.
427. Do you have any hidden talents? uh..no? none that are hidden.
428. Do you wish MTV would play music videos? dont care
429. If you were to star in a movie, what kind of movie would it be? vampire or super hero movie :)
430. What would your movie star name be? umm =RAWR= hahaha
431. Do you play any sports? used to
432. What's the scariest movie you've ever seen? scary? nothing is scary
433. What is the best movie you've seen in the theater or rented recently? umm...i saw mysterious skin again a bit ago
435. Do you drive? :S
436. What is your dream car? umm a toyota tundre double cab trd
437. Do you think your good looking? im not ugly, but im not great looking. im ok
438. Do others think you are good looking? perhaps
439. Would you ever sky dive? probably. my father used to all the time
440. Do you believe in Bigfoot? umm no
441. How many rooms do you have in your house? umm back at home 6, here thats not really a house 3
442. Are you afraid of roller coasters? no, but they hurt...if you know what i mean
443. Do you believe in God? i love him :)
445. Do you believe there is a heaven? depends what your definition of heaven is
446. Do you believe there is a hell? same as above
447. Do you own a pooltable? nope
448. Do you have a pool? there's on here in the apts
449. Do you have a dishwasher in your kitchen? yeah..i dont know how to use it though
450. Do you like chocolate? not anymore
451. Who/what is on your 2006 calendar? i have a lyndsey lohen one. hahaha but its not up
452. How many U.S. states have you been to? umm 3
453. Ever wished on a shooting star? nope
454. Best Halloween costume you ever wore? vampire!!!!111
455. Do you carry any weapons on you? uh...im mexican. what do you think???
456. What is your weakness? weak people are worthless
457. Name something you can't get enough of: music...and popcicles :D
459. How many kids do you want to have? umm...2
460. Future sons/ daughters name: ?? emmanuel, and estrella
462. What is your ideal way to die? some badass death that was like super awesome and stuff
463. How do you release stress? im never stressed...amazing to believe, but its true
464. Are you a trendy person? hell no
465. Are you an artisitic person? of course
466. Are you a realistic person? yes i am
467. Do you un-tie your shoes every time you take them off? nope
468. Are you a strong person? yes
469. Are you a strong willed person? hell yeah
470. Who is the last person to e-mail you? i dont use email. i only use myspace mail thingies and it was indie geek
471. Who is the last person to IM you? uhh...courtney i think. i dont know
472. Do you hate chain e-mails? yes
473. Are you a deep sleeper? used to be. now im ever alert
474. Are you a good story teller? hahahahahah...at least im not as bad as robb
476. What is your greatest accomplishment? being awesome :) lol
477. Do you like to burn candles or incense? ewww neither
478. Do you do yoga? nope
479. Do you have your own credit card? yep
480. Let's say you win the lotto....? thatd be awesome
481. Do you have a check book? yep...somewhere
482. Do you like your driver? uh...im lost. i would say robb is my favorite driver. O_o
483. Do you tan easily? yes i do...speaking of which i need to go tan
484. What color is your hair naturally? used to be black when i was a kid...now its really really really really dark brown
My Firsts and Lasts
FIRST REAL BEST FRIEND: Quiroga
FIRST SCHOOL: Pomona Elemntary
FIRST CELL PHONE: i still have it. hahaha a samsung...its broken many a times.
FIRST Animal: uh...dogs in mexico? or fish when i moved to the US
FIRST BIG TRIP: uh...las vegas when i was like 9
FIRST FIGHT: 2nd grade. about 10 of us second graders againts the whole
first grade class :) only quiroga and I didnt get in trouble :D
FIRST CELEBRITY CRUSH: topanga (boy meets world)
FIRST TIME OUT OF THE COUNTRY?: i wasnt born in this country O_o
FIRST MYSPACE FRIEND: josh haha
EVERYONE HAS THEIR LASTS:
LAST FUNERAL: umm...yeah. sad day
LAST PERSON YOU HUGGED: damn...some chick who i dont remember the name of at the moment. hahahaha
LAST CAR RIDE: well there was the ride home from work today, but other
than that, robert decided to go cruising last night just to like drive
around.
LAST TIME YOU CRIED?: ugh...fuck that shit. a few months ago
LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED: wedding crashers like an hour ago
LAST FOOD YOU ATE: some tuna with hot sauce and saltine crackers
LAST ITEM BOUGHT: cup noodles for lunch...actually it was like a HUGE bowl of cup noodles. it was crazy.
LAST SHIRT WORN: wearing my black hurley dress shirt at the moment
Last Song: the trooper- iron maiden
LAST PHONE CALL: damn um...lemme check....im too lazy to check.
i believe it was steve last monday
LAST TEXT MESSAGE: "oh!" from lauren
LAST THING YOU TOUCHED: ummm the mouse and keyborad at the same time
LAST TIME AT THE MALL: wow...a month ago at arden mall?
(For you OC people...south coast is like HUGE compared to the malls here)
LAST TIME YOU WERE EXCITED FOR SOMETHING: uh...i think it was when i
ate a starburst today...or the fact that i was drowning my tuna in hot
sauce :D
LAST PERSON YOU SAW: uh rick
LAST THING YOU DRANK: apple juice
LAST PERSON THAT BROKE YOUR HEART: like i said before. i have no heart
LAST TIME YOU WERE REALLY HONESTLY HAPPY?: im happy right now :)
69 Odd Questions.
BE TRUTHFUL
1) Are your parents married or divorced?
married...but i swear they shouldve gotten divorced years ago.
my dad always blamed me for their problems.
go dad
(i also think i was always my moms favorite...other than my little sister(baby of the family))
2) Are you a vegetarian?
i cant afford to buy any meat products frequently, so i say like 90% vegetarian. lol
3) Do you believe in Heaven?
depends what your definition of heaven is
4) Have you ever come close to dying?
a few times
5) What jewelry do you wear 24/7?
white gold earrings, a silver necklace with guitar picks on it, a
silver necklace with an abalone ring on it, my tounge ring, and a two
piece ring that I bought to replace on that i lost (mainly cuz its
super cool)
...damn i wear a lot of jewelry :-/
...but i swear it doesnt seem like it.
6) Are you eating?
yep...saltine crackers!!!!!!11
7) Do you eat the stems of broccoli?
fo sho
8) Do you like starbucks?
i love starbucks
10) Would you ever have plastic surgery?
fuck no. that shit is lame...unless you're a chick and
you want to get breast augmentations (im vain)
11) What do you wear to bed?
usually whatever pants im wearing at the moment...
or my adidas pants things
12) Have you ever done anything illegal?
ummm...define illegal
13) Can you roll your tongue?
dude...im mexican..DUH
14) Do you listen to the black eyed peas?
no...but that one chick is pretty hot
15) Store you want to work at?
starbucks!!!!1111
16) Do you believe in Abortions?
believe, yes. they are real. approve of them? no
17) What is your Hair color?
it looks black but its dark brown
18) Future child's name?
emmanuel if its a boy
estrella if its a girl :)
19) Do you snore?
no i dont. :D
20) If you could go anywhere in the world, where would it be?
id like to go to england and spain :)
...then lots of other places
21) Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
nope. when i was a kid though
22) If you won the lottery, what would you do first?
give money to my parents. give money to my sisters. buy a house. buy a car. buy recording equipment. save the rest.
23) Gold or silver?
silver
24) Hamburger or hot dog?
cheeseburger
25) If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be?
uh...oh man itacates!!!!!!!11111
26.) City, beach or country?
hmmm city or beach....
i miss the beach T_T
27) What was the last thing you touched?
keyboard
28) Where did you eat last?
tuna with hot sauce and saltine crackers
29) When's the last time you cried?
a few months ago
30) Do you read blogs?
only few peoples....like the ones i know that read mine. lol
31) Name of your favorite show on food TV?
uh...?????
32) Ever been involved with the police?
yep
33) what's your favorite shampoo/conditioner and soap?
garnier frutisse or however you spell it
34) Do you talk in your sleep?
hahah yeah...i carry out convos in my sleep
35) Ocean or pool?
uh...the ocean is pretty to look at
36) What's your favorite song at the moment?
only in dreams- weezer
37) what's your favorite color (s)?
blue, black, silver
38) Window seat or aisle?
window
39) Ever met anyone famous?
nope
40) Do you feel that you've had a truly successful life?
ive achieved happiness.
so far, its been quite successful.
41) Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?
i attempt to twirl it, but i just kinda lift the fork reall high and yeah...
you get what im saying
42) Ricki Lake or Oprah Winfrey?
uh...they're both fat
43) Basketball or Football?
soccer
44) How long do your showers last?
20 min+
45) Do you drive a stick?
nope
46) Cake or ice cream?
ice cream
47) Are you self-conscious?
duh...if i wasnt id be dead. do you mean if i have a low self esteem, then hell no. i have a high one ^_^
49) Have you ever given money to a bum?
yeah
50) How many times have you been in love?
1 too many
51) Where do you wish you were?
with my sisters
53) Have you ever ridden in an ambulance?
nope
54) Can you tango?
nope
55) Last gift you gave?
uh...i bought myself some candy :)
56) last sport you played?
uh...wow.
no clue. i dont play sports anymore.
57) Things you spend a lot of money on?
food. guitar stuff and uh yeah
58) Where do you live?
rancho cordova (sacramento county)
its crappy, but its home now
60) Last wedding attended?
uh...my parents wedding like 4 or 5 years ago
61) Favorite fast food restaurant?
in-n-out
63) Most hated food (s)
uh...mushroom soup
65) Can you sing?
somewhat
66) last person on your mind?
umm...damn now im thinking of lots of people, but before this i think
it was nathalie (mainly cuz im reading her answers before i type mine)
67) what's your least fav. chores?
all of them
68) Favorite drink?
cranberry juice or orange juice
69) Current Crush?
uh..i dont have one. at least i dont think i do.
...hmmm...no i dont. hahaha
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| how old were you when you first.....
FELL IN LOVE -...i fell in love with music at birth...and im still in love with it...if there was ever any other occasion it is unimportant in my life now.
LOST SOMEONE CLOSE TO YOU - as in died?...no one, that affected me personally...but generally speaking, at 18 i lost everyone
DRANK
ALCOHOL- i believe i accidently drank my dads beer when i was in mexico
once at the age of 12? then again i think i had drank wine before and i
mightve been younger
SMOKED WEED - i have no clue O_o
GOT KISSED- i have no clue either...but it was high school
LOST YOUR VIRGINITY- 17, but im sure you guys dont care
WENT TO THE HOSPITAL- never been
GOT YOUR HEART BROKEN - ...heart? i have no heart
LOST A PET - umm...10? i lost my iguanas...countless amounts of times
GOT ARRESTED - never...im not THAT mexican...ok so i am lol
SMOKED
A CIGARETE - ive actually only smoken one cigarette, and it was just to
see what all the hype was about. i was 18 (i thought it was
sickening...then again i smoke cloves...go figure)
BROKE A BONE - psshhh...im not weak
GOT A JOB - 16 hurray for vons!!!!1111 :D
GOT CHEATED ON - never? at least i hope not
CHEATED ON SOMEONE - i dont do that. thats messed up
GOT
A BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND - uh 14-16? I KNOW it was in hs...but same thing
with first kiss...somehow i cant remember...i cant even remember who i
graduated with...yeah my memory is that screwed up.
RODE THE
CITY BUS - umm...3!!!!!111 i remember my first bus ride. that day was
crazy...I REMEMBER SOMETHING ELSE FROM MY CHILDHOOD. i rock ^_^
WENT
TO A CONCERT - REAL concert would have to be weezer/foo fighters at age
18...my sister took me for my bday ^_^ BEST CONCERT EVER
MET SOMEONE FAMOUS - i dont care much for the famous
GOT IN A CAR CRASH - damn...uh 12? i cant remember, i was semi young
DYED YOUR HAIR - 17? dyed it black O_O
RODE IN AN AIRPLANE - uh...i was 2 and a half (that airplane ride changed my life)
WENT TO ANOTHER STATE - i went to nevada when i was 9 i think.
HOW MANY LONG TERM RELATIONSHIPS HAVE YOU BEEN IN- one more than i wouldve liked to be in
HOW MANY TIMES HAS YOUR HEART BEEN BROKEN - like i said, i have no heart
HOW MANY PETS DO U HAVE - my doggy is back at home T_T
HOW
MANY PEOPLE DO YOU HATE - i dont even hate the devil, but i do hate one
human being...but i think im fucking lame for hating someone, cuz
hating someone is lame...but i cant help but hate them.
HOW MANY
TIMES HAVE U GOT DUMPED - una vez(thats one time for you retarded
people)...and now that i think about it, i dumped them first a few
times :S...i just remembered that. i guess its not so bad anymore. lol
so i can always say i dumped them first. ^_^
HOW MANY TIMES HAVE U DUMPED SOMEONE - damn....a lot? | | |
| so i just got back from a hot date at the deathcab/franz concert
my hot date was robb. bahahahaha
and of course, being the gentleman i am, i payed for everything.
and i even took him to starbucks (that meant i was really enjoying myself) -_^
hahahaha..no,
it was basically a way to thank him for being a good friend to me i
guess "in my time of need." (yes robb i heart youXcore....no you cant
have my guitars)
anyways...continuing on
so like i a total asshole again!!!!1111 im back to being the old me.
there
was this group of kids (we were on the floor) and like 2 of them made
their way in front of me. needless to say i then turned to robb and
said, i should get in front of them and be an asshole....so i then
continued to push the kids and told them not to get in front of me.
then their whole little group of people all moved so i could get even
farther ahead!!!! :D bahahaha
then like i really wanted to get close
to deathcab so i pushed and shoved my way up to about ten people
behind...but there was this really sweaty guy and i didnt want to touch
him, so i kind stayed there. THEN i saw what appeared to be tyler...and
then i was like whoa! its tyler. so then i got bumped up quite a few
people and away from the sweaty dude. anyways...so then franz was up
next, and tyler went to go sit back in the seats and robb came up
front. there was this big group of kids (apparently they were all
seniors and juniors) They were all in big clump shoving people
Sooooo
being the asshole i am i started shoving all of them (they were all
like clumped up in a ball) it was quite hilarious how they couldnt push
me...and they were a whole bunch of kids including this ugly sweaty fat
guy.
....then the fat guy tried to shove me back so my elbow ended up on his ribs.
and
he stopped, but i kept my elbow there, so each time he tried to push me
his ribs would get stabbed. it was great....the night was also full of
me shoving other retards around....i ended up about 4 people behind
when franz was playing, so i was pretty damn close to them.
moral of the story...being an asshole is greatness
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